winterminute

09:43 am: Writer's Block: It's Never Too Early...


I already did where the fuck have you been LJ? I will tell you what day I won't be shopping, Black Friday. And do you know why, no sale is worth that kind of aggrivation.
I've worked retail, and it ain't pretty.

Tags: beginning holiday shopping, black friday, fuck off, writer's block

03:44 pm:

The easiest way to descride how I feel with out using my own words.

11:54 pm: Where is everybody?
Really, everything including facebook looks dead.

12:55 am: Don't get around much anymore
When I`m not playing solitaire
I take a book down from the shelf
And what with programs on the air
I keep pretty much to myself

Missed the Saturday dance
Heard they crowded the floor
Couldn`t bare it without you
Don`t get around much anymore

Oh, darling, I guess
My minds more at ease
But never the less
Why stir up memories

Been invited all day
Might have gone, but what for
Awfully different without you
Don`t get around much anymore

Oh, darling, I guess
My minds more at ease
But never the less
Why stir up memories

Been invited all day
Might have gone, but what for
Awfully different without you
Don`t get around much anymore

Tags: 1930's, loneliness, music, olde time

09:09 am: So much I want to say, but my words are failing me. Things are getting better, though nothing has realy changed. Nightmares stopped, sleep schedule still messed up, boozeing cut back to acceptable levels, and still not smoking. I find myself being bored alot but being broke for two weeks straight will do that to a guy. Can't wait for payday, I need to get out of the house.

09:32 am: livejournal is dead...
long live the next internet fad.

05:00 pm:

03:48 pm: "Why does it come as a suprise to think I was so naive.
Maybe it didn't mean that much, but it ment everything to me."

04:20 am: You can't stop fate...
It's in my head, like a cawing crow. Why is this my fate? What did I do to deserve this? I'm going crazy. I have practically no close friends, I can't hold a stable relationship, or make enough money to actually be independent. Really though, the truth is fate hasn't fucked me over, I just made really bad decisions in life.

04:38 pm: I think I'm losing it. It took me an hour to find my old journal, road2atrocity. I had completely forgotten about it. And after further inspection, I realized I'm one strange fucker.

07:10 pm: Now my interview was postponed until tuesday of next week, because the Gamestop manager was ill. That's understandable but I had plans with friends which I'll now have to cancel. I'm sure they'll understand, I really want this job. Stupid waiting, stupid illness.

On unrelated issues, there's more going in my life but I'm afraid to deal with it. My drinking is a problem. It's affecting the lives around me. The week before last someone gave me a bloody nose because I turned into an asshole for no other reason than I was woken up from a drunken sleep. I desereved it. All was forgiven but I guess I didn't really learn my lesson. I think back to 5 years ago and how I hardly drank. Maybe once every other week, now it's almost a nightly routine to have a beer or three, and then a bottle or Whiskey once a week. I can blame the stress at work but I don't think that's it anymore.

07:36 pm: Afer months of bugging employers and looking for a job. I've got an interview at Gamestop tomorrow. I hope this turns in my favor.

12:34 am: Big Brother is Mocking You.
Apparently the local paper told me gasoline went down 2% last month. I must be crazy for not believing it. I must not have bought gas all of last month. By the way did you also know the unemployment rate has decreased. GO America!!!

01:38 am: I complain too much. I'm melodramatic, sort of. On top of that I (still) drink a lot. I'm not drunk now, and I'm not complaining. I'm just stating facts about myself. I should grow up a little, because I really don't think my life is all that bad.

12:42 am: So lately I've been applying for local jobs like mad. I can no longer afford to drive 25 miles to work, while paying rent, student loans, car payment, insurance, food and all that other crap that comes along with living on $9.75 an hour. Especially now with gas at $3.50 a gallon and that lately everyday at work now is a Monday. Meaning non stop calls all day everyday, becasue a greedy billion dollar company can figure out, in a months time, how to get an automated system working. I have a solution throw some money at the problem, I mean ding. Hopefully I can make a new job happen. Even though it sucks ass now, I'm still making 100% on my quality reports. So fuck you Texas.

12:31 pm: Hey everyone! Bet'cha didn't expect to see me post. Whats new is that I moved, I live in Donora. Things are going well. Strange writing on here again, I wonder if anyone still uses their livejournal?

01:09 am: I haven't updated in forever, sorry. I suppose things to suck to make me want to write. And of course, I don't feel like sharing details.

10:27 am: New Phone #
724-469-1993 Call me I would appriciate a good friend.

07:28 pm: About two days ago I realized I really miss my friends. Since that time period I must have attempted to contact everyone I wish to hear from, and I think I may be invisible or mute. Maybe it the living on my own thing, but really I can't remember how long it been since I had a good, long conversation with an old friend.

Bloody Holidays making me sappy.

Oh yeah, I hate christmas songs.

10:01 pm: That new house smell...
Who would have guessed it was old cat pee.

So I've been in my place for a week now. Though the last two days were quite dull. No TV channels, no computer, and no one to stop by. For the first in quite some time I had no idea what to do with myself. I tried watching some of the movies I bought months ago and never viewed, man do I buy some god-awful crap. Mad Max (the first one) kinda bites, I wasn't pure crap but the director didn't even bother to fucking finish it. It just stops once it's getting good, the wanker. Next was another imported Aussie flick "Encounter at ravens gate". About an alien invasion which had no aliens, I didn't quite understand...

This makes me almost dread reading some of the books I bought in the last few years.